Worst Knitter. Ever.

Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

That’s the #reverb10 prompt for today.

Is it really only the 6th?

So I’ll talk about knitting, as it’s the last thing I made.  Then tore out when I realized I had dropped a stitch a looooong time ago and possessed no skill to correct it that didn’t involve some fancy MacGyver knot-tying.  Then I made it again.  Then tore out again when I suddenly ended up with 5 more stitches than I needed and a gaping hole my Dad would surely notice, because his whole head would be poking through it.  I started it again tonight while watching the season finale of The Walking Dead.  I was distracted by my own zombie escape plan and *may* have made a few mistakes again.  Apparently I am not qualified to find my ass with both hands, chew gum and walk at the same time or knit while the television is on.  In true Tara Fashion, I have decided to carry on, mostly because Christmas is actually coming, and I’m sure my Dad might want this item before summer arrives.  And I’m supposed to make more of the damn things.  Aren’t you lucky you aren’t on my Christmas list this year? (Ahem. Man?)

I am using fluffy string/yarn to make it.  I say string because when I was learning to knit, I went to the store with my friend Monica and after we had picked up the needles and yarn for my very first project (a truly horrendous baby hat), I turned to her and asked “So all we need is these sticks and this string, and I can make a hat?”  The fluffy yarn makes it hard for me to figure out out what I’ve done wrong when I mess up.  You might call it advanced string. I tried making a sweater at one point.  That project has peacefully died and lies in a box in the basement.  I completed the back of it a few years ago, with far too much help, and swearing, and throwing-of-the-project-in-frustration.  It would have been nice, but so are the ones at the mall made by 3 year olds in Thailand.

 

 

 

Day 2: #Reverb10

The prompt:

Writing.  What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing – and can you eliminate it.

My answer:

I tend to overthink, and that stops me in my tracks from getting the words out.  I don’t keep it simple, I turn it into a stupid Algebraic math problem.  If I just sat, and wrote the crap, all would be well.  I used to do something called Morning Pages, where I’d grab my notebook and just fearlessly write until 3 pages were full and my mind was overflowing with morning thoughts – I think I might try to go back to that, at least a few times a week.

There.

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In other news, Man and I are officially heading to split. 

Initially I felt relieved that a decision was made and I could stop trying to avoid the tiny voice in my head that kept telling me it was over, then I felt a lot of shock and a resulting insane euphoria, then as I cruised through nearly a bottle of wine, then I sobbed, and sobbed until I finally fell asleep.  The dog insisted on hanging out with me on the bed last night while I did all this, and I think there was a reason he ended up staying the whole night.  I needed his warm little body and to realize it’s bigger than my pain.

Done.  And it’s okay.  I am owning it, and living it, and I am going to be a thousand percent okay.  One day.